I learned alot!

Date: 01/30/09
Time:10:40pm
Place: Home

Early today I was reading this chain junk email that stuck in my head for a little while but in a good way. This was what the chain letter consist:


The Wooden Bowl

A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year old grandson.

The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered.
The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess.

'We must do something about father,' said the son. 'I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor.' So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl. When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometimes he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone. Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four-year-old watched it all in silence.

One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor.
He asked the child sweetly, 'What are you making?' Just as sweetly, the boy responded,
'Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and Mama to eat your food in when I grow up. ' The four-year-old smiled and went back to work.The words so struck the parents so that they were speechless.

Then tears started to stream down their cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done. That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand and gently led him back to the family table. For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason, neither husband nor wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled.


This made me think of alot of things like no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents,you'll miss them when they're gone from your life and maybe I should make amends with my mother who I haven't spoken to or seen in over 6 years. I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a 'life.' I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that I don't regret the happenings in my life because they made me who I am and will become. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands because you need to be able to throw something back at it. I've learned that I do experience pain but that doesn't mean I have to be one. Than I realized the most important lesson of all: I still have alot to learn.

I dont know

Date: 01/29/09
Time: 9pm
Place: Home

You ever had one of those days where you were doing things and you don't even realize what have you been doing. You know what I mean?

Well yesterday I forgot to blog because I was just exhausted from studying for my other class. When I go home from school yesterday and I parked the car, I just realized that god must have been by my side because I honestly don't remember the drive home. At first I thought maybe its because I'm so use to doing certain things on certain days and taking the same route. At sat in my car for maybe about five minutes, I gave my blessing to God because I really don't remember ever getting in my car and going home.

Today was the same thing. I mean this time I actually remember going to work but while I'm at work I don't realize anything that I'm doing. Since I handle a lot of the accounts and payrolls there is no excuses for mistakes. You have to be clear and correct or else it can cause the company. I tell myself again that on Thursday is just one thing to do the whole day and that's the payrolls to be processed so the employees can get paid on Friday.

I have had a rough week the whole week and I come home to nothing but studying till all hours of the night. I'm probably sleep deprived. Maybe I should take my first week vacation before I hurt myself or someone else because I've just been dazed and lost.

I forgot to blog yesterday

Date: 01/27/09
Time: 9am
Place: Work

I cant believe I forgot to blog yesterday!! I was soo tired by the time I got home. I had to take care of my taxes right after work. I didn't leave there until about 10pm and I got there around 7pm. I'm very picky with my taxes and want them done correctly. Of course I want a refund and this year I'm getting a super nice one but I don't like it when they add information that I might get attack for in the future like one day my friend tax guy did to me.

Eventually I had to do an amended return and ended up getting screwed at the end so now I only go to well-known places like H & R Block. So far they have been excellent in services which everyone should be since they are dealing with your personal information but we know that never happens.

Anyway I have to get back to work! My boss cant leave me alone for 5 minutes!

Another lazy day for me

Time:8:47 pm
Place:home
Date 01/25/09

Today I woke up late again. Which has been pretty normal for a Sunday. Last night we got home around 3am from my husbands nephew birthday party. It was a boring one but his aunt was my entertainment for the night. Me and her are extremely close.

Today I had a report that was due for my Customer Relations class. I never worked on it until today and we were given two weeks to work on it. I procrastinated alot but I think it came out pretty well. My butt just hurts from sitting down so long. Once I was done with the report my little brother came over and we played call of duty while eating domino's. I played alittle after he left and wanted to watch a movie until I realized I didn't blog yet. So I'm doing this now and I'm going to watch a movie before I go to bed. Another day at work tomorrow but I'm kind of looking forward to it because alot of work has been done and I just have to fix up a few follow-ups unless something else comes up to screw up my day which usually happens.

Another super long day

Time: 6:35pm
Place: Home
Date: 01/24/09

I woke up super early like at 8 am and I went to bed last night at like 3am. I had to go to the baptism for my sis-in law which started at 11am. Once we got back, we ordered lunch and helped get the cake and beers. My sis in law is doing a birthday/baptism party. One of her son's birthday is today and her other son was baptised this morning so she combined the celebration. I just came home to do a few things and maybe take a nap. I wont be heading to the party until alittle after nine. My sis in law doesn't know how to throw good parties. Since she doesn't work and her husband is the sole provider he is extremely stingy. I just found out how many people are going to be there and when I saw they were just going to serve this Spanish style type of soup I was like oh lord. Its like going to a homeless shelter, there is literally going to be just soup, cake, beer and chips. I cant get out of it unfortunately only because someone has to babysit my husband, he doesn't know when its time to stop hitting the bottle and one of two things will happened: he is probably going to act like he's tough and start drama or throw up all over the place. He doesn't drink on the regular but when its an occasion to have a sip of something he wants the whole bottle so he can be the talk. Whatever though I'm use to it.

I'm going to take a nap now!! BYE BYE!!

Today just went wrong!

Time:8:20 pm
Date: 01/23/09
Place: Home

I have never felt so exhausted in my life. I didn't write a blog yesterday because I was recovering from an eye infection since Wednesday and my eye was in burning pain. Now that my eye is better, I woke up this morning with a toothache because my last wisdom tooth is coming out but whatever I can deal with that.

At work the payroll company screwed up all the union workers checks and I had to spend the whole day fixing them before the union rep pulls our guys out of the Field. Traffic was the WORST this morning going to work and coming home from work. Some dude was trying to hype me up in trying to get ahead of me while sitting in traffic. RETART!! I hate it when people do that. Like I'm really going to be that stupid to risk my life, damage my car and hike up my insurance just to proved that I can cut people off and get to my exit before. Yeah buddy that was smart.

Before I turn to the block to where i live I have to pass this gas station. So I check my gas and decided that I would just fill up now since it didn't look busy (its a full service station and I filled up with $13. Thank god its a 4 cylinder). So anyway, my husband and I one day were talking about how there are people out there driving high priced cars and could barely pay for gas. Well I never noticed until I saw this dude with a nice looking 2008 Charger sedan and his friend was passing him gas and there was this 2008 Mercedes C-class and the owner couldn't pay for the garage payments.


Now today when I went to get gas there was another Mercedes there fighting the guy that was there pumping the gas because he didn't have the money to pay for it so he's friend said that he has it and ended up paying in fake twenties. Thank god the worker found that out before he drove off. Now mind you they weren't kids. They must have been as old are my father. They stayed calm the whole time but I just found it funny that this guy owns an expensive vehicle and doesn't have money for gas. Gas is super cheap now because like I said before I filled up with $13 but I have a 1997 Civic 4-cylinder, that's an unfair comparison to a Benz but I initially bought that car because I new that I will always be able to afford maintenance and gas to the vehicle. It's funny on how the things people do to show off to the outside world or to be the topic in every friend and family conversation.

I'm sorry I'll stay with my little civic! I love my two door! When I am able to afford something better, I will and it will always have gas too! And properly maintained!!

im so tired

Date: 01/21/09
Time: 1:44 pm
Place: Work

Today is alittle bit weird for me. I am so tired from doing all my homework last night plus I woke up feeling extremely sick. My eyes feel swollen and I have a tremendous headache!! Plus the dog is sick too!! UGH!! This morning it was him sneezing forever and very gassy!! Having a dog is like having a kid. When you actually pay attention them that when you get all concern with their health. He kept whining all morning but I couldn't figure out what was wrong. Since I had to leave for work and I'm not feeling good myself, I just put him in his pen which some blankets, locked him up and left.

My husband got home early and said he was sleeping on the blankets and didn't want to move from there. He wanted to take him out for a walk but he didn't want to go so my husband just left him there until he is ready to go out. My husband says he looks fine, he doesn't see anything that would show he is hurt or anything. Who knows? I'll see how he is the rest of the day and if tomorrow he isn't better than I'll just take him to the vet on my lunch hour. Another bill but that's what you get for having dogs!!

my president is black! History in the making!!

Date: 01/20/09
Time: 7:50pm
Place: Home

First I just want to start out by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! I know your not going to read this but I cant tell you enough that I love you always and I'm glad god gave us another year to have you in our lives!!

Today was a pretty laid back day. A few co-workers and I spend our lunch time watching Barack Obama finally take office. It was breath taking to see the African American become our president. I remember in the 4Th grade our history teacher was telling us the qualifications you need to have to become president and ended his statement saying "this is why a minority cannot become president". Not knowing what he truly meant, I just knew that we will always have "white" presidents. Until 2009 came rolling around to give us new changes.

It was amazing to see all the people that were out there to see him but I still couldn't help the fact the racism is shown alot more lately. I grew up with a racist mother but I never took her views. My best friends are Spanish, German, Turkish, Bahamians and African American. I considered them my sisters. But I just thought it was only my mother that was racist, not anyone else.

While I was watching Obama make his speech I started to think about all the crazy racist stuff happen since he was up for election such as the Spanish guy getting jumped and killed by some teenagers. At that point I realized that even though there are alot of supporter, there are also people who are probably plotting his death just because they REFUSE to have a country run by someone who is of color. I mean does it really matter about the color of the person? or does the morals matter? I guess its just ignorance for those racist people. They have the reason for their beliefs but sometimes its not fair when they feel they have to control situation by terminating the situation like those kids that killed that Spanish man.

About 2 years ago, during the holidays, I was at a toy store shopping for my nieces and nephews. There was this lady there that ended up hanging with me at the store buying kids toys because she was clueless. I live in a primarily Russian neighborhood and my husband and I are amongst the few Hispanic population in the neighborhood. So we stick out like sore thumbs. Anyway they lady eventually ask me where i was from. i knew she meant nationality but I tested her out and told her "from the building around the corner". She than so no you background, so I told her that I was Puerto Rican and Dominican and they both immigrated here when they were teenagers and had me and my siblings here in the states. She looked at me weird. I knew she didn't think that I was Spanish. Every one that I come in contact with always thinks I'm some weird nationality other than Hispanic. So I asked her what did she think I was, that's when she said Poland or some part of Russia. I asked her why? and she said because I have green eyes and there wasn't a such thing as an Hispanic person with blond hair and green eyes. She than asked me if I knew who my father was because I needed to check my status because a Spanish man will never father a blue eye baby.

I had NO idea what to do. First my mothers family are fully Dominicans all with blond hair blue eyes and my fathers puerto rican family are extremely dark. My sister has Indian straight jet black hair with a dark complexion, very pretty. My brother is slight dark complexion, light eyes, with dirty blond hair, he's a heart breaker. Just because one girl came out too look like her mother doesn't mean she is from a different man! I wanted to smack this woman. I was still in shock and my husband met me at the cashier to hand me something and asked me who he was. I just glared and she has the never to say if I want my kids to have a rich life I need to get rid of him and get with someone that will help me "bred" the "correct" color (my husband is dark as well). All I remember was taking the truck that I had in my hand and swinging it at the woman. I was just in shocked on how she felt she was right by saying that.

I just hope Obama as a peaceful term without these ignorant people making things already difficult than they already are.

I love this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q56pHCGrlc4

I love snow

Date: 01/19/09

Time: 7:50 pm

Place: Home

I LOVE the snow! I got out of a slow day at work, drove home to change, take the dog out so I can have someone to play with in the snow. My husband and I threw snow balls at the dog, made snow angels and took pictures. We walked around a bit and saw that someone had made a super big snow man! It was the coolest thing ever!! So we took pictures of course and some videos of the dog attacking a miniature snow man! I'm like a big kid when it comes to the snow! I have to be outside which is why sometimes people send their kids out with me. I don't mind at least I have someone to play with instead of the dog.

Here is a picture of the super BIG snow man:

And a video of my dog going buck in the snow. We had to keep him on the leash because of the kids around. He kept peeing and attacking their snowman's! lol

Yea its another sunday

Date: 01/18/09
Time: 6:00 pm
Place: Home

Today was mostly a day of writing papers for my classes because unlike other people I have to work tomorrow. I was going to take the day off but since my birthday is coming up I rather use it then. My husband doesn't have to work and it felt that it was necessary to tease me about it. I don't know why since I've been working at my job for almost 3 years already so he should be use to me working most holidays. My job doesn't give us a holiday until memorial day and that like at the end of may. They only give us seven holidays and the eighth is considered "open day" where you can use it as your own personal holiday at any period of the year. There are alot of different cultures at my job and everyones holidays are different. They all don't celebrate the USA holidays which is why they give us an open day.

See everyone can tease me all they want about working tomorrow. Most of the ones that are don't get paid for holidays, days off or vacation when I do. LOL. I can be home just for the hell of it and I'm still collecting for the day, where my husband has to go to work sick because he wont get paid and at that point its my time to gloat!! lol

DATE: 01/17/09
TIME: 4:20PM
PLACE: HOME

I cant believe its almost five and I just woke up. I was extremely tired when I got home last night which was about 2am. Traffic was the worst going into Manhattan. So many stalled cars on highway it was a mess!!

Ever since childhood I never fell asleep immediately,no matter how tired I would be, so when I finally started to doze off it must have been about 4am. Sometimes I hate sleeping late because I feel like I'm wasting my life away by doing nothing. But than again it is cold outside and all I wanted to do was get a car wash. It is disgusting from the dirty snow and salt!! But I heard it was going to snow tomorrow so maybe I'll go tonight to get one. I park in an indoor garage but my car cant take anymore of the abuse its getting from being filthy!! lol!! I never had my car sooo dirty.

I have to get ready now to go grocery shopping and make something to eat.

DATE: 01/16/09
Time: 11:30pm
Place: Home

Since I have to write a blog entry everyday. I decided to write a quick short blog. My best friends (like my sisters) are over now. Two of them have kids and brought them them over too. They are a cute little bunch and realized how much I really enjoy seeing the kids and of course my best home girls ever! We ordered pizza and got some goodies for the kids. We just clowning around.

My husband went out with his cousins to go see Notorious BIG. I'm about to take the girls home because one lives in downtown Manhattan and I rather drive her home and I have to pick my husband up too. Its way too cold outside for any of them to wait for cabs and buses to come. So I'm out now!

UGGHH!! day is almost over!!

Time: 4:20 pm
Date: 01/15/09
Place: Work.


Today is finally over. I have to wait for some work to get approved so I thought while I wait I would do a blog entry.

Today it snowed and I know people wished it snowed alot so they can go home but I don't mind coming to because I hate after work piled up because I didn't come in. Since I have the most responsibilities here they don't bother me if I want to leave work. I actually like the snow anyway. When the cleaning crew came to clean the lot, we were all parked on one side of the lot so they can clean. Today I were my sweats on purpose, so while I was waiting for the guys to tell us to switch the cars the others I would run up the ramp and run down to slide. I have a long coat and sweats so I didn't care. Some of the guys came out to throw snow balls but they kept falling on their butts and decided that they weren't going to mess with me anymore!! lol I had TONS of fun. I was going to go home and take my nephew and my dog to the park by my house to play in the snow. They LOVE it but unfortunately I have to run over to my brothers high school because they are having a giveaway and they need to have an adult with them. They are giving away laptops and ipods to the seniors and my mother doesn't want to be bother with that stuff. She felt it was a waste so of course I'll go. I'll do anything for my little brothers!!

Anyways I'm going to go now because its almost that time to head out anyways!!

I'm at work!!

Date:11/14/09
Time: 2:02 pm
Place: Work


I wont have time to do a blog entry after school tonight. That's usually how I feel after a long day at work and a day at school.

So I'm going to take alittle bit of time out of my crazy responsibilities here since I need a break anyway. For whatever reason I feel alittle down. Not depressed but more like looking at my life and wanting to change things. Honestly I cant wait to graduate so I can at least move forward to better things. I like where I work and since I have no kids my pay is great (especially since I just got my raise!!) but I have alot of things that I want in my life. I want my house already but away from NY. I might want to start having kids soon and I want another car!! lol

All these wants but my dollar only goes so far!! One day though!! I have hope and will to get the life that I wasn't raised with!!

unappreciated!!

Date: 01/13/09
Time: 7:13pm
Place: Home


First let me start off by saying I am soooo sleepy!! Today felt so long!!

Work was alittle bit ridiculous. For a while I was the only female in the company until about seven months ago they hired two more females. When I started with my job there was only six employees and now there is 42 employees. I know the in and out of every department and how to do their job. Even cost estimating.

Today I realize that people rely on me to do everything while they walk around on their cell phones and take 3 hour lunch breaks when me and the girls aren't allowed to take lunch together because the bosses want to have one of us around when they need us!! Well, the controller topped it off today. He started to prepare some paper work and since he was too scared to ask me where to find the back documents he just left it on my desk assuming that I was going to do it for him. I asked him to provide the supporting documents and for him to send it out himself. Well that didn't work because he left it in my office. I guess he waits til I step out of my office to leave notes. Well when I saw it I just threw it with the UPS and sent it for him. I know its going to come back rejected because since we to mechanical construction for the city they need their paperwork a certain way when invoicing them.

I really hope it does come back fast so he can realize that communication is the key to every department and when you start something you need to finish it. I have tons of other responsibility and I'm already fixing stuff up that the controller messed up (boss request) I am not doing anything else. Oh you bet with the next week or so I will be going in discussion about my raise and I'm making sure I get what I deserve. The work that I do is enough to keep 3 people busy and they know that because when things get out of hand I pay my little brothers to help when they're off from school.

Maybe that's why I'm so sleepy all the time!! by the time I get a chance to sit down I rather spend it sleeping but since I'm in school that option gets taking away from me quick!!

M-O-N-D-A-Y S-U-C-K-S

Date: 01/12/09
Time: 7:10 pm
Place: Home

Today was a pretty quiet day at work which is weird for a Monday. I did most of what need to do and plotted some trouble that I will cause tomorrow because I refuse to fix up the work that other people screw up especially since these dam hogs get paid more than me. But I'm not worried about the drama that is going to happen because at the end it wasn't my responsibility and people tend to lack communication.

I left my usual time and went straight home. Right now I'm listening to alittle Aaliyah, Britney, twilight soundtrack and some other stuff just to ease my mind from all the devilish things that I have in planned so I can go to bed in peace.

I am soooo sleepy!! and its only Monday.

work tomorrow!!

Date: 01/11/09
Time:6:00pm
Place: Home



Not much of a day today. Basically woke up late because I went to bed late last night after we watch two movies which is a typical weekend for us. Hang late ,sleep til late unless something is going like errands or appointments.

Now we just order take out for dinner and might watch a movie and hit the sack because unfortunately we didn't win the lotto and so we have to go to work tomorrow.

UGGHH its snowing still!!

Date: 01/10/09
Time: 7:51 pm
Place: Home

Today was a pretty lay back type of day. I had to do a few things in the morning and since i knew it was the weekend I went to be last night around 3am because I was watching Twilight again. Bad move. I had to wake up at 8am to run some errands before the snow came down and I didn't want to get caught in it since my car isn't equipped for it. Thank god by the time I got home it just started snowing. When I got home I went to bed. I woke up to cook and now I'm going to pop some popcorn and watch 7 pounds.


I was watching this before the blog. I love the jabbawokeez. I cant believe they put those stupid girls to try to compete with them. That's where the video failed,I think.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvJyeO9xteY

I'm Dead!!

Date: 01/09/09

Time: 10:11 pm

Place: HOME



My last blog stated that I was going to explain about my day but I'm not!! All I know it was a long day! From going to work, swinging by the school, getting a ticket for reckless driving (my job didnt know I went to queens during my lunch break an hour drive took me 1/2 hr), going back to work, after work I went to see my dad, than left to drop something off at my mechanics house, than picking up my husband and bro-in-law, take my bro-in-law home, go out to eat with my husband and now I'm finally home and all I wanna do is go to sleep!!





Nite Nite!!

My days are too LONG!!

Date: 1/07/09
Time: 10:45 pm
Place: HOME

My day has been the super longest day and you would think that I should be use to it already since it always feels this way.

I ended up going to work SUPER early (7am day starts at 8am) because I had alot of 2008 employees and accounts that needed to be closed and stored away and start preparing the 2009 account and new hires. OK FINE DONE!! Got rid of that finally before 8am even started to peek! Which made me realize I should just get to work early because its peaceful and alot gets done!!

And of course the day begins. I go from handling union payrolls, catering lunch and hearing my boss BEG me to fix the stuff the freaking, retarded controller screwed up!! 5pm creeps up on me and guess what my day is still not over!

I went to get my nails done, than run to my "hook up" guy to go pick up my bulbs for my HID's (the lights on my car,if you don't know). OK! So I get to my garage and feel like putting the HID's on to get rid of the project. I popped the hood and realized forget it because its beyond a mission. Unlike some cars, in order to install the light I have to take the whole bumper and grill just to get to the head lights!! I'll do that some other day!!

So I get home, took a shower and I wanted to go to bed until I realize there is homework that needs to be done!! and than my buzzer barked!! I forgot to take the dog out and my husband is in his third dream from getting home early. I walk the dog, come home and hubby's hungry! Fine I'll cook! So I fed both my dogs (hubby and my pit bull).

And now I'm trying to get some homework done and do everything over tomorrow. Oh!! but tomorrow is going to be interesting!! There is sooo many things that need to be done in a short period of time!! Thank god I'm not afraid of speeding or even getting caught!

Now I want to go to sleep!

I'm so sleepy!!